I had the deepest meditation after the first two hours of the Seattle workshop (slow movement, Hayy chant, rest, own process) that I’d had in weeks.
I was gone, gone. I could sit and be, eternally.
What came to me is how long it takes for tawaakul — trust in God — to develop. Layers of slow letting go. I felt trust in a new level, a relaxed trust, a pleasure in the relaxed meditative state, and a ‘knowing’ that this is the wonderful place to exist, a true, lovely place, very kind, gentle. And it is okay for me to be there.
And that this is the inside of Trust and the outside of Trust.
Later, Lori reminded me of the word ‘belong’. She said she felt she belonged. These feelings live closely twined, beloved of one another.